i wanna be that guy...

who can use a command and it is embedded in his brain...
who can read a chapter once and all the complications become native...

who can figure out the answer in the question...

who can sit at a new system and play it like a maestro...
who stops second guessing and trusts his first instinct...

instead, i am the guy who...

has to beat the shit out of a thing before it is mine...
has to take it apart and put it back together before truly understanding it...
has to read it, then spit it out in language that belongs to me...
has to cross check before finally believing it...
has to drive himself  insane before coming out the other end...

sucks to be the second guy...